Welcome back to Five Minute Friday. The general idea is to receive a prompt word and write about it for 5 minutes. No major editing, no fixing things to make the perfect post. It’s about writing.
This week, I left it really raw. It was one of those words that I wanted to overlook, but I stepped up to the challenge to write anyway. What follows is a rough estimation of how my brain works. I like where we finally ended up, but the getting-there was H-A-R-D. Disclaimer: I went way over 5 minutes, but you’ll see why.
This week, the prompt is Joy.
The clock is ticking… The meter’s running…
And I sit and try to figure out what in the world I could say about joy.
| | | | | ← the cursor keeps blinking at me.
The Bible is filled with promises of joy. The 2nd fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace…
But I don’t feel it. Life is hard sometimes and my joy seems to dissipate like morning fog as the sun rises.
I don’t remember a joyful moment today.
And I wrestle with how that balances with the people who are bubbling over with joy so much of the time.
I remember how, just before Christmas, a friend had a really exciting thing happen in her family. She couldn’t contain her joy (rightfully so!). One day she shouted on Facebook, “JESUS IS SO GOOD!”
At the time I was working through Advent, preparing to greet the Christ-child anew in celebration of his birth. My heart was raw, wounded, and sore. I mulled over her triumphant shout, happy for her, aching for me. It struck me at the time, that while I couldn’t shout in joy that God is good, I could still whisper it in pain. I could sob it in prayer.
Jesus is so good.
God even used that to allow me to encourage a few other people during the Advent season, to shyly show a tiny window of my pain so that someone else’s day would be brightened. There was a quiet joy in that.
Back to today. A joyless day? God is still so good.
But my heart aches. God is so good.
And today’s problems will still be here tomorrow. He is good.
But I just want to scream out my frustrations! Jesus is so good!
Today is the first day of spring. We’re between the two holidays of Christmas and Easter. The joy at the manger to the joy of the cross. You see that now, right? The sorrow has a bright side. God is so good. He orchestrates everything for good, for His glory.
The joy of today is that even on a hard, exhausting, stressful day, God is so good.
You can read more of this week’s Five Minute Friday posts here – Joy.
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