Day 23: God’s grace is greater than my sin

I’d like to take you back in time a couple of years to share something I wrote on the weekend of Easter 2011.

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Friday night, minutes before the start of the Good Friday Gathering, Tom and I had a minor disagreement. Not even that, just a miscommunication really. He had to serve & the Gathering was about to begin, so we had to just drop it. Thanks to modern technology, we texted things out over the next 10 minutes and everything was fine by the time the service began.

But…

In the moments before that 10 minute window, I wallowed. My husband doesn’t care. Doesn’t he know I am already having a hard time with other issues and then he throws this at me? Around me I heard friends visiting with one another cheerily. No one cares. I am alone. It only took seconds before I saw the absurdity of my thoughts. How small and selfish and vain my heart is. In that instant, I was broken. Here I came to remember the suffering, agony, and shame that Jesus Christ experienced dying on the cross for the sins of the world, and here I proved yet again, why he died for me. I can’t even come to church and not sin! The truth rang loudly:  nothing I do is ever good enough, nothing I bring is ever worthy enough, nothing I say is powerful enough to forgive my sins, to cleanse me of the blood-guilt.

Here grace steps in. God, in his grace, offers me what I do not deserve and could never earn. God generously gives his son, the only one perfect sacrifice, to pay the debt I owe for my vile actions. Jesus willingly allowed himself to be crucified, for me. He rose again from the dead, for me.

This blows me away.

Bianca Olthoff posted (in 2011) about grace, at her blog, In the Name of Love. I would like you to watch this video she posted, and I encourage you to check out her blog (I’ve lost the link to her original post).

 

What hit me like a ton of bricks was his sentence, “I cannot pay my debt,” and the realization that my debt is as great as this man’s. No less atrocious in the eyes of a holy, pure, and righteous God. And I, too, am forgiven.

Doesn’t that just blow your mind?!

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I’m reposting this today as part of the #write31days series, Crushing your Kingdoms. Click to read all posts in the series.

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  1. Wow! What a wondrous gift, grace. He blows my mind all the time with His love, mercy, gracious, kind heart. Oh to be more like Him!

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  2. I cannot pay my debt…beautiful. Thank you Jesus!

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  3. This is the second post in a row talking about a marital fight. It’s nice to know my husband and I aren’t the only ones to ever disagree or have a miscommunication and yes there is Grace. Thank you Jesus, there is grace!

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  4. We have to come to that place so many times, that realization that there is nothing we bring to the table, that it is only God’s grace. So glad it is sufficient for us all.

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  5. Thanks for this post – good food for thought.

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  6. I find extending Grace to my spouse to be one of the hardest things for me – we often withhold it from the very people who loves us most. (The other person we withhold it from the most – ourselves!)

    Love this reminder of Grace, Janice!

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  7. Ethel Miller

     /  June 24, 2015

    Janice, that video was so amazing ! Thanks for sharing it. Like the families of the people killed in Charleston – in church YET !! But they forgive !! The hurt is still there, but forgiveness is the balm for the wound. Oh, to have a spirit ready to forgive the small offenses that fester away. Just proof that God is not through with me yet !! Thank You, Lord.

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