Day 15: King Me

My Dad used to play checkers with my sister or me on the pull-out drawer of his massive wood desk. We’d pull up a kitchen chair across from him and sit down to match wits against our beloved father. I can still remember the glee of being able to shout, “King me!”

firehouse checker by sciondriver (CC BY-NC 2.0)

firehouse checker by sciondriver (CC BY-NC 2.0)

King me, right?

King me. Put me on the throne. My thoughts, my preferences, my desires, my issues, my wants and wishes. King me.

Our Facebook posts, instagram feeds, and tweets shout it out – king me.

We spend our days building up a kingdom that centers around us. Our home, our family, our job, our school, our needs. It just keeps going. King me.

I guess I would call this the kingdom of self. We all reign in our own kingdom at times. We selfishly want things to go our way. We act or scheme or direct conversations so the focus stays on us.

It calls to mind Mark 8:

And calling the crowd to him with his disciples, he said to them, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel’s will save it. For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul?

This kingdom may be the hardest to crush. It seems to be a back and forth struggle. Sometimes I feel that I can put myself aside for others, and then the next thing I know it’s “king me” all over again.

Do you see yourself calling out “king me” sometimes? I don’t think that this is one we can crush on our own or quickly. It takes prayer and constant handing over to God. Daily.

And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. Luke 9:23

crushing your kingdoms
← Read all the posts in this series here.

Advertisements

Day 12: My best guess

winter berriesThe words aren’t coming tonight.

*thinks a moment*

Nope, they just aren’t there. I have a ton of thoughts in my head, but none that make sense working on this series. So, I’m dumping out the words as they pop into my head and we’ll see where they take us.

I’m feeling quite a bit like a failure tonight.

Not just for my lack of coherence with the blog, but in not staying disciplined to work on house-related things, in lacking the stamina to continue vacuuming out water from the (still) flooded basement, for not planning out meals for the rest of the week (church friends have graciously helped out with meals every other day for the past 10 days), for not organizing the mess that sits around me – remnants of the stuff brought upstairs by helpful friends, for falling behind in my volunteer work for church, for not leading others well, for complaining again & again.

For giving into temptation again & again. For giving up hope again & again. For believing the lies repeatedly.

berries of winterI’m tired. I’m worn.

I don’t have beautifully strung out words for you tonight. I don’t have the answers tonight. I don’t have the solution to the problems. I do have a laundry list of problems.

I do know the answer is in Christ. I know the eternal picture makes sense, even when this temporal view is jacked up.

May you be strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy, giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light. He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. — Colossians 1:11-14

I think this may have been crushing the kingdom of I-have-it-all-together. Or, at least, that’s my best guess.

Today was just one random day of:

Click to read all posts in the series

Crushing Your Kingdoms – 31 Days

crushing your kingdomsWe all do it.

We set goals, we aim high. We create bucket lists and reach for the stars.

We attempt to set up our own little kingdoms with little ol’ me on the throne.

We may pin things to our Pinterest boards to build up our kingdom. Perhaps we cook and clean and decorate the “perfect” house.

We may work long hours, using a career, to create our kingdom.

It’s possible we’ve decided the kingdom must happen through our children and we bow to their every whim and desire to give them the perfect childhood we didn’t have.

In the quiet hours, late at night, when the house is still and you’re not able to sleep, that’s when you can be honest with yourself. Your attempts to build a kingdom are wimpy at best. If anything, you’ve created a sandcastle kingdom, but a strong wave will knock it down.

For the month of October, I will be joining a couple thousand bloggers in #write31days. Each day in October, we’ll look at why we set up our own kingdoms, which kingdoms needs to be crushed, and whose kingdom we should be building (hint: the Lord God).

You can come back to this page anytime to get links to all the posts in this series.

Is there a kingdom you immediately thought of while reading this? Let me know in the comments and it may make its way into the series. Also, if you’re visiting from #write31days, let me know so I can visit your blog!

Day 1:   Wanting our own way
Day 2:   Four lessons from a flood
Day 3:   Before the Throne of God
Day 4:   Counting blessings & revealing messes
Day 5:   Sit in the hard places
Day 6:   Stop building on sand
Day 7:   Praying for grace
Day 8:   Put on the new self
Day 9:   Reflections on glory
Day 10: Idol Factories
Day 11:  Appearance isn’t everything
Day 12:  My best guess
Day 13:  The Words of Others
Day 14:  Hear our hearts cry out
Day 15:  King me
Day 16:  Theirs is the kingdom of heaven
Day 17:  Let your light shine
Day 18:  Even still
Day 19:  Christ is king over Ebola
Day 20:  Though you ruin me
Day 21:  What others are saying
Day 22:  You are here – a brief recap
Day 23:  God’s grace is greater than my sin
Day 24:  How dare you?
Day 25:  Ears to hear and eyes to see
Day 26:  Four kingdoms (root idols)
Day 27:  Where your brokenness bring you
Day 28:  When longing for approval
Day 29:  How to crush your kingdoms
Day 30:  Seeking the True Kingdom
Day 31:  Continually crushing

bold_crushing

  • Hi, I'm Janice. I'm part bookworm and part creative. I love both science and music (and the science of music). I'm stumbling around trying to grow closer to God. Click the photo to read more about me.

  • I’m so glad you’re here!

    Thanks for taking time to read my posts in the midst of all the great blogs out in the blogosphere! If you like what you read, please follow me, or sign up to get my posts in your inbox. I'd love to hear from you, so please leave a comment!
  • Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

    Join 755 other followers

  • Follow me on Twitter

  • Check these out:

    31Days_Rest_thumb
  • Copyright 2014 Claygirlsings | all rights reserved

  • Advertisements